Rubber Gloves

Yo everybody, been a while, that's because Ghost has spent some time, trying to find a new laptop for me, since I fried the old one.

I suppose I should explain myself.

You see, I was in my "room", scrolling away at the internet, looking up information about these freaks of nature and everything, the usual stuff. And then, all of a sudden my laptop just freezes for a few minutes, after which the screen instantly goes black and the laptop refuses to turn on. Few more minutes later, as I was trying to figure out what was wrong with it, it started to smell as if something got burnt.

Surprise, surprise, it was the laptop Ghost lent me. I gave Ghost the laptop through a small window in the door so he could take a look at it, after which he told me that the motherboard was completely fried. At first I thought the laptop must have overheated, but he told me that, that wasn't it, according to him, the ventilator seemed to be in proper condition. He also got slightly shocked when he touched the motherboard, in order to check how overheated it got.

So based on that and a few of his previous posts, it was entirely my fault. Apparently I have a lot of electrical energy flowing through me as a result of Azoth and Electricity that Ghost applied in order to get me out of my brainwashed state, mixing up together.

So since then, he gave me rubber gloves and he approached me only while wearing rubber gloves, so I don't break anything else.

So in short, I'm a freak of nature now, fucking grand!

Well at least Ghost got me a new laptop, so I could have this opportunity to rant, after asking for Ghost's permission to post about this, of course.

Got the lamest Spider-Man villain powers, great...

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Um...Hello

My name is Hannah, but you already know this...whoever you people are.

Ghost told me everything he though was necessary, to say that I didn't believe him would be an under statement, but he presented me with countless evidence to back up his claim and... well, now I'm here.

He told me that I can stay here for a while, until I can figure out on where to go next and what to do next. Problem is, I don't really have anywhere to go, nor do I have anyone to go to, at least, before I was "Hollowed" I didn't have anywhere, or anyone to go to, don't really know how status is now, I doubt it's any different, who'd want to be friends with a mindless puppet?

Ghost gave me this laptop, so while I'm here I could read up about what this thing is, he sent me some links to a few blogs, he gave me some of his journals to read up and with nothing to do, I occasionally do read up about this thing. This sounds so crazy, but I guess not being able to remember 2 years of my life just kind of proves this insanity to be true.

Ghost invited me as a writer for this blog, said that this can serve as my memory journal, in case I lose my memory again. I didn't see anything bad in it, so I agreed, not to mention I wanted to thank all of you for telling him to inform me of what the situation is.

So, thanks.

I guess that's all for now, I don't know, still wrapping my head around everything.

Post #17: Just an Update

Evening,

Just a little update to show that I'm not dead, MIA, or anything among those lines.

Due to your comments saying that I should tell the subject everything about the situation they're in and their current predicament, I did so as soon as the test subject decided to calm down and listen.

I guess there is no point in hiding her identity anymore.

Her name is Hannah, she's 18 and she has no records of having any family members that are still alive. She is currently trying to come to terms with everything I told her, I didn't go too much into detail, just told her the basics, told her who I am and what I do, told her where she is (Didn't tell her where we're actually located at) and everything else that needed to be said in order to understand her current predicament.

She is currently in the cell that I placed her in. Don't think that I'm forcibly keeping her there, she is just thinking and I assume she's thinking on her next move. I told her that she can stay with me (But there will be a few rules) for a while until she can figure out what she is going to do and where she is going to go.

As for my research, well, more about that in later posts.

For now, this is it.

Post #16: Experiment #3 - Choice (Update #3: What to do?)

Evening,

I'm afraid I am stumped at this moment in time.

I believe I have hit the limit with what I could possibly experiment with, with the experiment subject, now I'm not quite sure what to do with them, keeping them locked up is not an option.

I have two choices:

Seeing as the test subject has no recollection of any of their Slenderman encounters, or anything that happened after they encountered the Slenderman for the first time. So I could just let them go blindly and not bother with them wandering around blind and clueless.

Or, I can spend some time telling them about it, about the situation they were in before I brought them out of the hollowed state, about the situation in general and then let them go.

The reason of why I'm giving you people this choice is because, I personally, don't care, I can just kick them out and not worry about them ever finding my hideout. Another reason is that I need some confirmation that some of you are still alive, it's been quiet for too long, so maybe this way I can flush out some voices.

If no voices come forward, I just kick the test subject out and put them at risk of being hollowed again, or maybe even worse.

Post #15: Important Update #2 - Keep an eye out for "Contagium"

Calling in all numbers, Contagium has dropped off the radar.

It's been silent for almost a year now, before dropping off the radar, it was traveling through the threads looking for something, presumably looking for it's next targets.

#7754; #19963; #1379 and #00097: be careful, since "Contagium" disappeared somewhere around your thread line.

P.S. #166 you should start-up a separate e-mail, we don't like the idea of people reading these.






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Post #14: Alternate Liquids - Venenatus

I call this liquid - "Venenatus", which is Latin for "Venomous"

This is a new liquid, my past self never recorded anything bout it, because he never got around to obtaining it. I obtained the liquid quite recently, because it could be the most difficult to obtain, since the carriers of it are really hard to track down.

If the translation above didn't give you an idea of what I'm talking about, I'll just clarify and say that I'm talking about the liquids that reside inside the Lilim's, the servants of a being known as The Mother of Snakes.

As I said, Lilim's are hard to find, unlike proxies, they don't wander around our world aimlessly, when they aren't doing anything, they stay inside of their domain, so how was I able to acquire a sample of their liquid? Simple, instead of tracking down a fully converted Lilim, I was able to track down a Lilim in the making, a human in the early stages of turning into a Lilim.

That person was already quite far into the stage of mutation, to the point where they had fangs, not as far to be able to replace their legs with a tail though. I took both: a blood sample and a venom sample from them and left.

First, let's talk about blood. The Lilim's blood has congealed as the process of mutation progressed. In order to take a blood sample, I had to stab the Lilim and literally put my hand inside the wound and rip out a chunk of blood, you can take a look below:

Lilim's blood sample.

At first I found it strange, but as time passed, it made sense. What happens when a poisonous snake's venom comes into contact with Human blood? Exactly, it coagulates, however, this is a bit different.

As I examined the blood sample, I found a few interesting cells swimming around in it, those cells were the same as the Venom sample I took from the Lilim and those cells were spreading fast. I took the blood sample (While wearing gloves, of course) and squeezed it above a plastic container, I was squeezing out the green venom. Blood was mutating, it was changing due to having contact with the venom, yes, however, blood was creating this venom, since cells were forming out of nowhere.

As for the venom, believe it or not, I didn't find anything out of the ordinary, the only thing I was able to find out, is what type of snake this venom belong to and it belongs to Inland Taipan, by many, considered to be the world's most deadliest snake.

I'll definitely re-visit this liquid, but for now, I don't have enough information to write up anything else.

Post #13: Experiment #3 - Electricity (Update #2: Interesting Side Effects)

Ghost here,

I was able to bring in the lie detector and as I predicted, the Test Subject was always telling the truth about not knowing of Slenderman's, or any of the Fear's existence. Again, this doesn't mean anything, since Azoth can be manipulating the Test Subject's nervous system from the inside.

However, I noted an interesting Side Effect. I used a taser to bring the Test Subject back into their proper mind set from being Hollow. I thought I eliminated a good bit of Azoth from the Test Subjects mind by doing so, but I was wrong. Apparently, I just slowed it down and forced it to adapt to the electrocution, it never made sense to me on how could Electricity possibly cause a negative effect on Azoth, since Azoth bares traces of Iron in it and if we remember the basics of Physics, we will know that Iron serves as a great conductor for Electricity.

So me assuming that I hurt, or eliminated a bit of Azoth was foolish.

I started getting shocked every time I came into physical contact with the Test Subject. Now, electricity being produced by a human body is nothing new, doing it on a regular basis, is.

I assume the reason why Azoth was inactive all this time, is because it was learning our laws of physics and finding out that it can actually conduct electricity. Add to that the chemical parts of the human body and Azoth figured out that it can produce and conduct electrical energy.

I don't know what kind of effect this new addition to Azoth may have on the Test Subject, I have several theories that lean towards a negative effect, but I can't confirm anything for now.

Ghost, out.

Post #12: Experiment #3 - Obedience (Update #1: Past Reflexes)

I decided to unchain my test subject. They are still in the cellar. I understand that it is quite dangerous to keep the test subject unrestrained like that, however, I've spent an entire week asking the same questions. Questions about Slenerman, Azoth, how the subject got involved, everything connected to the fears and every single time the same answer: No recollection of such events.

Luckily, the test subject did have the recollection of their name, their upbringing and etc. However, that was it, so I did some research, it says that the test subject went missing and have been missing for 7 years, the test subject's home state declared them dead. This is where the test subject draws a blank.

Could it be, that by making the Azoth back off from the brain, the test subject forgot everything the moment Azoth was implemented into their body? If that's the case than the injection of Azoth must have been severe, since it should have immediately worked it's way up to the brain. In small dosages, Azoth doesn't go directly for the brain, it manifests, it needs time, hence, the memories would stay intact even after the introduction to Slenderman.

Regardless, the reason why I unchained the test subject, is because whenever they answered the questions I asked, there was something in their face expression when I observed them, while they were answering. It's as if based on only the face expressions I was able to tell that the test subject is telling the truth. It sounds ridiculous and extremely "Out of character" for my analytical self and yet, that's the feeling that kept creeping back and stalking me. Probably something left over from my past self.

And if they truly are telling the truth, I see no reason for keeping them chained up like a dog.

I'm trying to get a lie detector in order to see if the test subject is telling the truth, which will take some time. However, again, there's a possibility the lie detector won't be able to tell me anything, since, as I said many times before, Azoth is capable of controlling the human's nervous system.

Post #11: Alternative #1 - Sanctuary

In the beginning it was just the Slenderman, then came along others and for a while it was only them, however, over the course of this mess came along creatures that don't seem to fit with the Fears. This is the purpose of this new section, to analyze these other entities, or as I like to call them "The Alternatives".

Today I will talk about Sanctuary, the introduction to this alternative came along from a blog called "Daily life With Roy" and the creatures presence began back in April 13th, 2013, when Roy on the verge of death crawled towards a door that wasn't there before, and opened it, after which he passed out.

In his next post, Roy described the place where he woke up as "Eden":
There were beautiful trees all around and a large waterfall that turned into a small stream. What was slightly eerie though was the lack of animals. No birds or anything. -Roy.

This is where he met Sagari. A girl that has long, green hair (Which is natural according to her) and looks like she is in her twenties (22), she is also really pale.

"Sagari" in translation according to Sagari herself, also means "Sanctuary" while I'm not sure which language translation that is but upon further research of the word I found out that Sagari's are Japanese ghost's that take the form of grotesque horse heads, which drop down from Hackberry trees to startle travelers on the road. Apparently the ghost's represent all the dead horses, which died during travels and the bodies of which were just left alone, apparently, when a horse's soul begins to leave its body, the soul can get caught up in the trees and transform into these ghosts, failing to pass onto the afterlife. In translation from Japanese Sagari means "Hanging" (Also, Sagari in translation from Hindi means "Sea Breeze").

She then proceeds to tell Roy where he is and what she is. She says that he is in Sanctuary and that she, herself is Sanctuary. Sanctuary, according to Sagari and the description that Roy gave us, seems to be a pocket dimension, same as The Path, Empty City and etc.

She then proceeds to say that she wants Roy to work for her, to be her "Proxy" however, she states that she is not one of the Fears:
I am not one of those monsters you call a fear. I simply am an entity that wants this war to end. -Sagari.

In order to convince Roy to join her, she promises to grant him powers, which will allow him to free Proxies from the influence of Slenderman, but not all of them, some are apparently "Too far gone." She then proved this strength by getting rid of Slenderman's influence over Roy. However, all of these promises would turn out to be a lie. This power wasn't freeing people from the influence, it was just blocking it, it wasn't even counter destroying it like Acidus and Azoth, just blocking, which means that this power seems to be a lot more weaker than the influence of Slenderman.

Moving on, Sagari then would admit in the comments that she, in fact, is not The Sanctuary itself:
I can understand why he would think I was some kind of supernatural entity but I'm not, I am human though a powerful one. Sanctuary is sentient though....similar to the empty city just not evil. -Sagari (Answering one of the comments).

This what's going to make this analysis real tough, because Sagari is a complete liar. In her first meeting with Roy, she said that she was Sanctuary itself, she also lied about the powers getting rid of Slenderman's influence, she was lying, to get Roy onto her side for whatever reason. Even after admitting to those lies, she continued to lie:

She also explained that she could manipulate sanctuary to look as she wanted. It's also apparently impossible for me to permanently die while in sanctuary. Strange.  -Roy

I doubt that she was manipulating anything, I believe that Sanctuary was telling her what to do, while it took form. I'm not sure about the whole "Not dying" part, see this sentence was an explanation, because a few sentences before this one, Roy described The Sacntuary to be on fire and he was being attacked by an old enemy, who managed to injure him heavily, injuries which could cause death. However, the facade was lifted, all of it was an illusion created by the Sanctuary, so all the injuries could have been an illusion as well. Previously we found out that Slenderman can manipulate cells in your brain to create false senses, like passion. Sanctuary could be capable of doing the same, by manipulating cells in your brain, I'm sure you can create the illusion of pain. Another lie? Quite possibly.

Moving on.

Sagari would then give Roy his assignment, he was to retrieve some Azoth for her, why? That was never explained. Roy never did retrieve some Azoth, however, along the way, he was given a second mission by her. He was ordered to either kill, or free (From Slenderman's influence) a few proxies which were on the list, however, I doubt that he was ordered by the Sanctuary, I assume that this secondary mission was of Sagari's desire:
"I feel some proxies need to be taken care of. Their kill count is growing. They need to be taken care of."     
-Sagari.

She says that she feels the need to take care of some proxies, not the Sanctuary. I assume she got caught up in her own lies.

She also lied about his choice to either kill or free them, because later on she would drop by his place, tie him up and torture him in order to convince him to begin killing them, one proxy in particular that she wanted him to kill was KnitWolf, another blogger here who met her demise recently, she was a proxy and got really friendly with Roy, despite them being on opposite sides of this conflict. Sagari saw their relationship grow and wanted Roy to kill KnitWolf. Could have been a test of loyalty, but later it would prove to be nothing but selfishness.

Furthermore, Sagari was the person who involved Roy's girlfriend into this mess, so indirectly, she was responsible for her death and Roy's misfortunes. So already she has her eyes on Roy, but was it of her selfish desire, or did the Sanctuary order it? The reason why it's hard to pin point who's order it was, is because of the following statement:
"I saw your potential Roy! Izzy was a necessary loss. Don't you see that? I had amazing plans for you. You would do so much good! But then...." She looked at Wolf, hatred burning in her eyes. "She came along and corrupted you. When Izzy died you were supposed to finally see people like her for what they truly were......monsters!" -Sagari

Again the "I", moving on.

After being tortured by Sagari, Roy wanted to find a different sanctuary to rest and heal up, KnitWolf offered him a stay at her place (Which is protected). He agreed. However, few posts later, Roy and KnitWolf were planning on facing Sagari and finishing her off so they set out to battle her.

“You take everything from me!” I heard Sagari yell. Wolf was dodging around Sagari's sword as she tried to stab her. “My brother was fourteen when that thing you serve found us!” She snarled “It took his mind and made him kill our parents! Do you know what happened after he killed my parents?” Sagari continued “He snapped out of it then and killed himself after he realized what he did!” I knew I had lost too much blood. The edge of my vision began to go black. I could barely make out what Sagari was saying. “All I have left is revenge. I won’t rest until your master and all of your kind is destroyed!” -Sagari.

And there's our motive, revenge.

So what is Sanctuary? I believe it is much like the Empty City an entity that is also a location. Sagari is not The Sanctuary, she is it's servant. One day Sagari lived through the tragedy and while vulnerable, Sanctuary opened itself up to her and decided to recruit her. For what purpose? Building an army? Could be, but if so, then it is building it's army very carefully. For example, if it was Sanctuary's orders for Sagari to get Roy and his girlfriend involved, then the Sanctuary wanted to recruit Roy, but in order to do so, he had to re-live a traumatic tragedy which would break him, Sanctuary would then open itself up to him and offer him whatever he desired. In this case, Roy wanted nothing but to save people's lives and avoid killing them, so the Sanctuary ordered Sagari to lie about it's powers on freeing people of Slenderman's influence. Sagari was promised revenge. Two of the promises clashed and Sagari, overwhelmed with hatred, began to pursue her own goals.

So what are the powers of the Sanctuary other than shifting itself? Well, apparently it's servants have the ability to block the influence of Slenderman's Azoth. However, if it was Acidus for example, it would get rid of both Azoth and Acidus, however, Sanctuary's power can only block Azoth, showing that it's not on the same level as Azoth and is a little bit weaker.

It's servants also become faster and stronger, but that is it.

In short, Sanctuary is yet another Fear, which tries to deceive you in order to get you on it's side, it waits until it's possible servants are during their worst time, then it opens itself up to them and promises to give them, something they desire.

To this very day both Sagari and Roy are still alive, Roy started a new blog that you can check out here.

Post #10: Experiment #3 - Obedience

Everybody remembers how various people tried using electricity against Slenderman? For a short period of time, people believed that it had some sort of effect on Slenderman, however it was proven otherwise, when the creature showed that it did not effect it in any way.

However, there is an effect.

That's what I've been doing for the past couple of weeks, I've been electrocuting a Proxy.

I know it sounds horrible, but bear with me.

During the time of my absence, I was outside, hunting for a test subject. To be more precise, I was trying to capture a Hollowed Proxy, those, who's minds are completely engulfed in Azoth and they are nothing but puppets.

Luckily, I was able to capture such a Proxy, using the good old fashion trick of applying chloroform to the face.

I chained up the subject and placed them in my cellar, where the only way out was the entrance door.

After that, my daily routine consisted of electrocuting the test subject. The test subject was electrocuted every 2 hours of every day. With every new day, the voltage level would increase by 15 volt. Overall the reactions would always be the same: pointless snarls, moans and groans. There would be a few rare occasions when the test subject would outright yell.

Finally, when I reached 450 volt-shock level, the Test Subject went unconscious. After 22 minutes, The Test Subject woke up and for the first time ever, began questioning on where they were and what is going on. First proper sentence I heard coming from the Test Subject.

I explained the situation. They said that they don't understand what I'm talking about and that all they wanted to do was go home. They didn't know what Azoth was, nor what the Slenderman was. Failing to identify whether they were telling the truth or it was Azoth manipulating the human body to lie, I still kept the Test Subject sustained.

I stopped electrocuting them for now. I took their blood sample and I was correct in my suspicions, the Azoth is still in the blood stream, which means two things:

1. As I said before, it could be Azoth manipulating the human body into lying.
2. The Test Subject retained control of their mind, after several electrocutions.

Now I am just observing the behavior of the Test Subject, unknowingly to them. All this time, they kept acting normally, the expressions of their face would change accordingly to their mood.

Post #9: Return

Holy Molly, it's 2015 already?

The last post from me was published on October 14th, which means that there's going to be a 3 month gap between these two posts. So if I ever forget again, when I'm reading this in order to bring back my memory, here's an explanation on why I was away for such a long time. I traveled into a loop to retrieve something, if you need a refresher on what a loop is, find a big, fat, red book on the third shelf and on page 364 you will find everything that I knew at this point so far.

Now that I got the back up plan portion of this post out of the way, I can concentrate on explaining on where the hell I disappeared to.

As I said, I traveled into a loop, been stuck there for quite some time as you can tell. Why would I embark on such a dangerous adventure? Well, I had a lead to follow, I've been looking for an organization that made it their hobby to hide inside loops. This organization is tasked with running experiments on captured Proxies, the deadly kind of experiments.

This organization is sponsored by various governments. Their experiments mostly concentrate on controlling Azoth, which means, controlling the Proxies in their custody. For what purposes? A perfect army.

We are in a troublesome time, wars left and right, any government would be willing to cough up a few good bucks for a perfect, fearless army. This has been going on for about 5 years now (Maybe more, I started hearing about them only 5 years ago), 3 years ago I thought it to be only a myth, the remaining two years I finally managed to get into researching these guys.

Guess what, in those 3 years they managed to develop a liquid that counter reacts Azoth, completely wiping the Azoth out of the system. One problem, the person immediately dies after all the Azoth has been withdrawn from their body, I don't know if it is because they use the liquid they developed to remove it, or if the human body can't survive without Azoth once it has been introduced into their system.

Meet Kizral Loshin, pretty much, the only known, financial backer of this whole organization (With his wife).

I managed to track them, find the exact loop they were based in and infiltrate their building unnoticed. My target was the liquid they had developed, I wanted to run tests on it and maybe, develop an Azoth neutralizer that doesn't kill the victims (Unless it's the lack of Azoth itself that kills them).

Long story short, I got it, some of it is in my possession now.

What a great gift for New Years huh?